The Prayer

I can't let go of him. 

... and my sister told me
wash your hands and feet
get down of your knees and face the east
bow down to your god and pray for release ... 
and receive your deliverance. 

drunken and belligerent
I followed my ignorance
and reached for you instead
My heart and my head
argue with my flesh
and even when I can get
2 out of 3 to concur
The remainder will replay all we were
in shadowfall / against a moon lit wall.
I can still see the silhouette of us making love
drifting apart and becoming one
in a rhythmic drumming. 
Cumming ...
to conclusions
and faded disillusions
I did not ask for resolutions,

I asked God to forgive me for loving you too much.